我對自己說謊了

在這之前，曾經有朋友問我，你相信緣分嗎？

當時我愣著了，我不是不懂得回答，而是我對緣分有所保留。

今晚，媽媽問我同樣的問題：你相信緣分嗎？

我回答說，緣分能信嗎？媽媽說：“我相信，因為如果有緣分，千里來香櫞”。“ 緣 ”，就是在茫茫人海，你遇見了你那個他，“份”就是你們在一起，走到最後。而有緣無分，就是你們有緣，可是沒份走到最後。

我心了寒了下，真的有緣分這回事？一直以來，我的觀念就是，我們努力去尋找自己的那個她，努力的一起走到最後。緣分是，次要吧？其實心裡，知道媽媽的用心，她要我試著去放下。這次眼淚在眼眶打轉，心裡確實浩浩的大哭，我真的不信有緣無份。

最近忙的很，以為真的可以忘記，思念太猖狂，一想起你，忙碌的生活變得空蕩蕩

今天，我問了超過500個人這個問題：“今天你笑了嗎? " 到了現在的深夜，我發現今天我又對自己的心事說謊了。臉蛋掛上笑容，但我感覺不到那份笑的喜悅。

一直不敢翻開久相簿，因為我怕我輸給了，自己內心的脆弱，我不喜歡那樣的我。雖然一次又一次，我還是讓那一面和我正面交鋒，因為我真的很不捨得捨去。不捨得的是，那一起堅持，努力的夢想；那一些的日子。

我懷念，這裡。這裡的美景，這裡的氣候，這裡的一切點點滴滴。曾經，我很執著說,我要一個理由，一個放棄的理由。現在，想想雖然我還是很想知道那個放棄的理由，可是我覺得我需要的是尊敬你，有時的我，變得很不理智，是因為我害怕失去。

我覺得這個角度，我很喜歡。我會真的很喜歡，我就不再換了，我害怕的是嘗試，我更害怕的是我失去我喜歡的。所以我要珍惜，我不想在，毫無方向的漂流大海，我想靠岸，我真的很想靠岸。

想想是不是,靜靜的，安全的，觀賞會是件很幸福的是？

天天聽到，夕陽無限好，只是近黃昏。時間過得快，快得太不自然。我現在最難堪的是，夜晚的到來，週末的到來。荒島裡，變得冷清清的，更是難·過。在人群中，一人吃飯，到處走走停停，感覺很不自然。我又不習慣了，我有了時差，忘記了晝夜的美好的回憶。

我不想離開這個美麗動人的世外桃源，如果我離島了，我還會遇見你這樣美麗的島嶼？我還會愛那個地方愛的那麼轟轟烈烈嗎？實話，我不想離開～

Long drive; Long night

Long drive, long night
The best night of my life,
With you riding, your hand on my hand.
The thought of arriving, kind of feels like, dying.
I don’t want, to go home and be, alone.
Could we, stay out?
Could you, drive a little slower, don’t matter where we’re going,
As long as I’m with you, we could take the long way.

Drive a little slower; I was following you

Drive a little slower; I was left behind you 

Drive a little slower; I afraid of losing your direction

Drive a little slower; So I will not getting too far from you

Chevy Nova, front seat, sofa, getting closer, to you.

Drive a little slower; don’t matter where we’re going,
As long as I’m with you, we could take the long way.
Drive a little slower, not ready to go home,
I’d rather stay with you.
We could take the long way, to the country out of town.
Let’s get lost; I don’t wanna be found.
Let’s get away, now and be careful not to crash.
There’s no defrost and we’re steaming the glass.
You and the road have a generous shoulder
We can pull over and say we took the long way.
Headlights, not strobe lights,
I can see you, but not quite.
I can feel you inside; the timing is just right.
For the moment, I don’t want to go home.
Take the long way.
Drive a little slower; don’t matter where we’re going.
Take the long way.
Drive a little slower; don’t matter where we going now.
Take the long way
Drive a little slower; not ready to go home.
I’d rather stay with you.

We can take the long way.
Long drive, long night,
The best night of my life.

A tiny little YELLOW

While doing face mask, while blogging here =)  Really have no much time for myself. =(

Miss all my friend which I didn't meet for quite some time. I hope all of them are fine and good =) Even those I had little busy here but I will send my best to you ^^

The time passing so fast, June is here. Let's said goodbye to MAY.

I am still remember when I was young, I always urge to be older and I can do something that only ADULT can do. *hehheehee* Don't think something naughty here,yay! But now, I really wish I can be remain age in 18yo. We can't stop the time, so from now start We just want to be thankful for today, yesterday, tommorrow and forever, I'm thankful for my life.

Recently, I'm thinking of immigrate to somewhere far from Malaysia. There are many country cross to my mind suddenly. 1. New Zealand  2. Ireland  3. Norway 4. Switzerland 5.Austria 6.Finland 7.Canada 8.Sweden 9.Denmark 10. Secret ^^
There is always a problem for us who staying in development country and High-advance technology country, the people there facing too much of stress. They can't even know what they really want. Everything become more and more Complex.


# A little 'too much' stress from the current academic work, I always long for the school have a mercy on us.

what do you think if the GREEN leaf all turn into BLUE color. I think no more MONDAY blue, and there will be everyday also BLUE. We have to always think POSITIVE, think GOOD and think FORWARD. Appreciate everyday life. Be blessing in everything. =)

Hi, so cute here.Looking at the camera picture. Feeling so relaxing. I want my life to be meaning, my life to be colorful, my life to be BEAUTIFUL =)

SPOT anything from this picture? Congratz to you if you can see the cute yellow tiny flower. Which means You using your heart seeing thing. I know right? Our lifestyle rhythm is very fast and non-STOP rolling, we actually missed a lot of the beauty scene in our daily life. Sometime, we just need to take a break and enjoy the nature beauty in our surrounding or in this world. It could be anything. Think of yourself, you are born in this terrible crowd society, will you long for someone to see into you? Love you, Care you and make you feel your existing.

From today start,  try to pay attention to the little thing. Be more caring, loving, polite, honest, easy, respect, patient.

Sharing is caring. 

Loving yourself, family,friend and everyone

polite to everyone

honest to everyone

take it easy in everything

Respect everyone, equality

Patient to be a observer and listener.

Lastly, Let's Smile =D

Good Nightz, everyone.