but I don't do that this time. November remind me something. Remind me, I should be more aggressive to finish it the things that I want to do because very soon, 2014 is coming.
14.01.2014. I am officially 21 years old. Very soon, I turn to be an ADULT. When I was in primary and secondary school, I always think of when I turn to be an ADULT, I must go to club ( although I went there in the underage time). I must have go to Times Square ( last time prohibited by my mom not to go times Square that area). I must go to Travelling not under my parents guide) I must have a sweet Valentine Day's, I wish to have a nice present in my birthday, I wish there will be someone accompany me to celebrate birthday ( so I will not feel alone) and many wish go through my mind. (Perhaps I am still a kids on that time)
Frankly, I cried in those day and some more I cried on the street. It's so terrible. Yeah, I am not feeling good. I lack of the safety feeling. Although, there happened something which I don't wish to happened, but there is already a FACT. The things I want to do is to be strong, grateful and facing it and challenging it.
I chant, I pray. somehow my tears still can't stop by myself. Sometimes, I just feel want to rest and take off the SUPERMAN mask. I am not SUPERMAN, I am just a normal human being.
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Everyday, I wish I will be more much better and stronger than yesterday.(not crying during bed time) I wish every morning when I wake up, I have my dream come true throw all the E.Drops. I want to be happy always and always. I want to have a happy life ( as now I wish always) . Everyday, I want to have a meaningful life.
